What fills the hours between sleep

didnt think I would write in this again but alas here I am....nothing better to do

nothing good to write either

hi I love you guys here is a dumb poem!

Under your pillow lay your head down angel
Its raining fire and carbon film tonight
Don’t say your prayers we don’t talk to strangers
Its way to late to make things right

This night we walk through fallen leaves in deserts
We’ll walk on broken knees its better
For feeling every step
We’ll punch holes into our lungs
And value every breath
We’ll love this night to death

Now sleep my beauty queen
Hear me from your hospital bed
Don’t eat just sleep
You need to fit into that dress
Drink only this song
And try to look your best
The mortician will do the rest.




this poem was meant to be cheezy because its the poem of one of the characters in the short story Im writing it fits his personality hes kind of a D-bag but I suppose we all are at times, maybe thats why I like this charaacter so much hes kind of a reluctant nerd

tata

You are all in my heart forever

IT WILL BE CRUCIAL
im going on vacation to richmond where I live for BESTFRIENDSDAY!!
bands games friends beer fun fun fun.

I suggest you al come

as my roomate would say "these are the days"

SOON SOON SOON.

I will be there not my old home or my temporary home but my new home!
I miss richmond its been so long since Ive realy gotten a chance to chill there but soon I will be there for a long time.
and I will chill

My momma is coming to visit in a few weeks Im stoked!

Im proud of that Irish guy for beating Mike tyson!

So Im fighting with my mom over her george w lifestyle in cobntrast to my born to lose lifestyle
NO BIG DEAL
I have decided that I like Jello
My week is almost over because it hasnt even begun
I miss bring it on
ok the only music I have right now is whisky and Co. but thats tough as nails
I dont like headaches
I missed advancment by 2 tenths of a point! im bumbed about that
I have had a bad caugh for like 3 months think its walking mneumonia (or however you spell it)
Im stoked about my three day weekend still
Im not good at saving money
I have only 800 dollars saved up at the moment and this weekend Im speniding it all on a party
and oh yes there are french people on my ship
thats right french

I think I will be broke soon but no big deal I have food and shelter and that all I need
I went home this weekend (richmond home) and I had a good time mostly hung with my roommate, my friend jordan was in town so I brought him around but he didnt seem to be having a good time so Eric and I took him home on saturday, when we got back to our house that afternoon Owen was having a party there (it was weird but awesome)so the entire night Eric and I played Avril and Ashly Simpson really loud and every one was kind of not cool with it but there was nothing they cold do because they threw a party at our house! Next day we played video games alot than went out at night than crashed really hard. Monday morning went to back to norfolk and tried to work but I was throwing up alll morning and Im not sure why, because it wasnt a hang over. Last night I went to a Cookout with some dudes I work with because I lost my cell phone and had no way of making better plans but all in all it was a good time and I think I have an Idea of where my phone is.
I need to get these two weeks over with so I can head back to my house for a killer three day weekend, A well earned and needed break.

I wish I could find my nail clippers

I LOVE MY MAMMA
but i cant see her or talk to her because Im in the middle of the fricken ocean

hey so heres an update on where I am as far as personal growth.

Im quitting smoking because im sick of coughing!
Im Never having sex ever again until im married (that is if I get married)
Im not desperate for a girl friend anymore because Ive learned to have fun and enjoy the company of friends
Im still fighting with God but I miss him so much.
Im paying bills
Im getting promoted.
I make people laugh whenever I can.
I LOVE LOVE LOVE my friends
Im no long an Objectivist
Im forming my own philosophy
Im WRITING WRITING WRITING WRITING
Im really fricken good at my job
Im missing the brandon kids
Im excited about becoming an uncle (uncle Kunkel heh)
Im missing the Nevada kids
Im sorry for who I have been for the past year or so
Im missing someone who im no longer talking to but the fact that I am no longer talking to her is proof that my mind is getting better
Im working right now so I have to go

hey so this is not highschool anymore its alot more fun

GOOD TIMES! I had some awesome times in richmond this weekend finally got to see johns band....well I saw them all together in a room unfortunatly I was on a beer run (and literaly I was running down cary trying to make it to 7/11 before the alcahol was cut off) when they played GODDAMN ALCAHOLISM!
But I hear they were awesome!
I had the shitties hangover saturday which seems to be fallowing me today but all is well there is so much more to write but I have to go muster for duty sectio sorry BRO'S.

im starting to feel like im losing it again, I dont know what to do about it.
maybe another vacation? I want to wait until the end of june I just need to hold out till than. I think I should call mike some time I miss her.

I found myself this morning a reflection in the glass
in broken bottles on the side walk as I was walking past
and when I saw my shattared image in in that green and brown display
I was afraid I walked away I walked away
Ive been battleing a scarecrow hanging on a cross
and in Each drink I drink to victiory Im only tasting loss
FUCK ILL FINISH LATER

I have been significantly intoxicated everynight since last saturday. tonight will be my breakbinge and I will not drink till next friday night! I met some cool people around norfolk (finally) but I still love richmond with a God-awful passion. I saw some shows this week one bad one good one awsome! saw falloutboy and realised I never want to see another pop-punk band again! Saw some Good mettle bands and hardcore danced my shoes off! went dancing thursday danced with this pretty awesome chick from my boat, she seems like a true chill-ass-dude. I would like to take her to richmond some time and show her all the cool places to go there. yesturday I got off work early went to richmond and hung out with eric (my room-mate)all day I had an awesome time many cool things were discussed and agreed apon and many alcaholic beverages were consumed, later that nigh Eric and I went to the raygun to watch the Rock-lotto and a ton of our friends were there and we all drank allot and at some point I went across the street to bother joey while he was working so that was cool, I think its safe to say that I was the first one at the raygun to get tottaly incooherantly drunk, but I had to because I had to leave at 3AM to get back to work so I hurried up and got to my pass out state and eric and I left at like 10pm just like that. I had a good time and cant wait to see everyone again as soon as this hunk of steel floats it way back to port friday

Your Career as a Deadly Assassin (LJ) by maxgallagher
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Gender	MaleFemale
You first killed at age	14
Your victim was	Your father
Reason	Justice
Your trademark weapon	Poison Gas
Your reputation	Arrogant and contemptuous
You work with	joey5000
You kill for	Political reasons
In the end, you are defeated by	xhotrosex
Your death	is faked
Your career body-count	897
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kinda cool. dad thing is creepy though.

FIRST A POEM:
ive stopped searching for the answers to questions never asked
I'm burying our history im covering up the past
Ill great the sun tomorrow for the very first time
and the mention of your name will sees to remind
me of war and desperation
of the spoils in defeat
of that blundered operation
in that empty dessert heat
Ill forget about your necklace and how hard I didn't try
And Ill never be as reckless as that night you saw me cry
I wont feel guilty for my sins and the secrets that I kept
or feel cheap for satisfaction gained that week that you wept
I swear by this poem Ill wake up free from sin
By this rhythm that I've stolen
and this unforgiving pen

I should put more thought into writing poetry because I suck when I just make shit up on the spot like that....


NOW SOME CURRENT EVENTS:
on the ship for two weeks again we pulled in....Thursday (that's yesterday for those of you who are savvy with the lingo)And the cap gave us Friday off! I was stoked but than It turns out that I didn't have the day off why??? because on Thursday I had completed indoc which made me ready to stand watch and it just so happened that my duty section had duty Friday so I had to stand watch Friday. So I was kinda bumbed and I was like shucks there goes what could have been an awesome weekend, my co-worker grahm so that I was bumbed and invited me over to his house for the night to watch movies drink some beers ya know dude stuff, I wasn't going to go out because I didn't want to miss duty section muster the next day but I decided the heck with it and I went I had a chill time with grahm and as I was leaving his house ryan (from st-augustine / richmond )and Justin (from richmond also) called and said they wer with some chicks and going to this 80's dance club in norfolk and since I was in norfolk (and I had already had a few beers and my judgment was impaired )I said "heck yes! Ill go to!" and I did by the time I got in it was like 12am and I had so much to drink it was insane I danced like crazy and always had a beer in my hand (now let me inform you I have duty muster at 6:45AM)not even worrying about how I was going to get to the base and blah blah blah so I just danced it up had a great time oh I also saw some girl from my ship there I talked to her she's chill, although I don't remember what I said because I was fucking wasted. AT LAST last call comes around closing time you know the drill. I make my way to my car in a drunken haze and I get in and I try to put the key in the ignition but I couldn't so I just ended up passing out in the car I was out I woke up later to the sound of tapping on the window I looked over it was a cop I said something unintelligible I don't even know what I said and he was like "oh man your wasted! well your doing the right thing just keep the keys out of the ignition and sleep it off. I was just checking to make sure you were not dead." and he walked off and I was like cool and that's when I noticed that there was a pile of vomit next to me and I was shocked because I didn't remember doing that so my initial thoughts were that some dude had came by and thrown up in my window but now that I'm sober I see that is most likely not the case. so I passed out in the car some more and woke up at fucking 630Am and I didn't panic because I knew there was no way of getting there in time for muster so I just tried to clean my car a bit and be on my way which I did so I roll up to ship round sevenish and they let me through the QD no problem (it was like I didn't even exist) no one said any thing at all so than I go get changed into my uniform and go assume the watch at 0800 told the chief at the QD that I didn't know I had duty today because I thought I was still attached to school of ship and he was like "that's cool just go stand your watch" and that was that so far no repercussions have come up weird!
but the duty days not over yet so im still not at ease
and I have the worst hangover ever EVER! TTFN

So I had a really good time easter sunday just chillen with good people and drinkin beers, playing on the swings and the seasaw and drinkin beers, playing kickball foursquare and wall ball and drinkin beers, riding bikes and eatin pizza and drinkin beers, whatching a great movie trying to sing along as Joey played the guitar and drinkin beers it was such an awesome day I wish I didnt have to come back to the ship
but maybe its my time away from richmond that makes my times in richmond that much more awesome?

Hey I talked to that girl when I got back to the ship last night she didnt blow me off this time but I kinda made fun of her...thats not how you score chicks at all!

P.S. Spell check is fer losers

the water is so blue out here im stuck behind a desk I have to pee I got in trouble again all is well

So backgrond:
my sister is having a baby some time within the next two years for sure (pretty much for sure. She was having trouble gettin knocked up for like eons. She couldnt get on the baby makin pill because insurance didnt cover it. But than she joined this medical study wherein she takes an experimental firtilization pill (it could be the the real thing could be the placebo you know how those studies go), and she bangs my brother in-law until she is finally knocked up. and if she doesnt get a hatchling by the end of the experiment well than they for sure put her on a real pill that works and she gains an offspring, and I gain a nephew! well thats the background

Heres the story:
Im sleeping on a ship and Ive been having weird dreams I blame the nuklear reactor. So yesturday someone asked me to fetch the tericada paint and I thought they said pteridactal paint! so all day I was stoked on dinosaurs and last night I had a dream that my sister was going to give birth to a stegosaurus and I was freaked out because I knew that its spines would tear apart her uterous I was so worried. But than I woke up. And now i need to warn er

yep aboard the ship covered in paint chillen hard chillen strong and rocke out to no music at all you like that I do

keep it chill thats all Im sayin

whats up